Reflecting back to my News Years Resolution for 2009, I remember thinking “this year I want to feel light-hearted”. That was my goal. No promises to change behaviours or break habits, I just wanted to feel light-hearted. The previous year had been one of many changes and challenges and there was an undercurrent of heaviness that I just couldn’t shake off. Although it had been a very long time since I had felt genuine light-heartedness, I remembered how it felt and I wanted it back.
Never underestimate how powerful setting an intention for a feeling state can be. I am happy to say that 2009 turned out to be the most amazing year. Reflecting back on one particularly light-hearted moment; sitting in a Cowboy Bar one evening in Sedona, Arizona with three other Martha Beck life coaches after a beautiful long hike into the desert before sunset. The four of us were taking turns going next door to have psychic readings done and laughing like loons when it occurred to me that I had achieved my goal. I felt lighter than air. Life was good. Life was sweet.
I know what you’re thinking “I would feel light-hearted if I had been doing that too”. That’s why I have one more story for you. Last summer I sold an 11 year old mare that I had raised from a foal which left me with one lone older horse. In order to keep her company I decided to get two young goats that had been born on Easter weekend. A couple of weeks after I brought them home they both ate a poisonous plant in the pasture called lambs kill and became violently ill. My 26 year old daughter, who had been instrumental in their acquisition, helped me to get them into the back seat of my Toyota Corolla in order to take them to the Vet Hospital. “Lily” and “Sweet pea” were both projectile vomiting for the entire half hour trip. Both my daughter and I were completely covered with copious amounts of the nastiest smelling substance you can imagine. It was like something out of a horror movie. It was so bad there was absolutely nothing to do but laugh. The louder the gurgling sounds came from the back seat the harder we laughed. Every inch of space inside the car including the dash and windows were covered. You know what they say, it’s better to laugh than cry.
Looking back at my feelings at the time, I would describe them as light-hearted joy with a lot of gratitude mixed in for the laughter I shared with my daughter and the outcome, which is that Lily and Sweet pea have decided life, is much sweeter when you don’t eat everything in sight.
I think I’ll be ordering up more of the same for 2010.